Monday 4th April 2011

sooo yeah weekend = AMAZING! <3

friday i was worried i wouldt get to go to jamies cuz my mom was ina mood with me buh when i got home i got told to get ready and catch my bus ^_^... bus was 2hours late so i missed the early one to jamies so i stayed in town playing 'KICK THE OWL' with evie till 7.30 =] the owl being james xD
 i was on the phone to jamie while on the bus to his and i ended hanging up on him cuz he was saying 'wait a minuet, wait a minuet, wait a minuet' repetedly :') had a lovely  kiss doe ^///^
in the take-away jodi got pured coke all over her face and she was just layed in a puddle off coke xD
me and jamie watched jennifers body while falling asleep :) it was nice.

saturday- jamie had to go to work fo' most teh day so i went to south cave with jodie and louis to meet -insert persons name i always forget- and billy :)
me and louis convinced -IPNIAF- and billy that were brother and sister and we all just sat in the park being bored most the time =/
got back to jamies and jamie was just on the way to the shop so when we got back i stole his laptop again ;D
it was fun that night, we watched jamie and kobe on guitar hero and watched films, pissing ourselves at wrong turn 3  =] me and jamie fell asleep on the sofa, kobe in his bed and louis and jodie in jamies bed. jamie randomy woke up and said 'its really hard to do with your teeth...' we dunno what buh it was funneh. 'parently jamie and kobe snore and i was close to falling off the sofa all night.

sunday- woke up, i woke jamie up :) he tickled me and i fell off the sofa :( and then he kept stroking my face aand all you could hear was me sayin 'IM AWAKE JAMIE, IM AWAKE' :')
jamie said i have a mushtash :(
i went home on sunday :'( didnt like it. buh i get to see him next weekend for his couisins party and the weekend after for mu college interview and then the second week in easter =D

ooo you know when you find out if you get into south hunsley you might be moving into jamies house <3

iloveyou<3
i love you <3
i<3you
i luv yhu <3
ai shi teru <3
j'adore tu <3

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NARWHALS, NARWHALS
SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN,
CAUSING A COMMOTION,
CUX THEY ARE SO AWESOME

NARWHALS, NARWHALS
SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN,
PRETTY BIG AND PRETTY WHITE,
THEY'D BEAT A POLAR BEAR IN A FIGHT

LIKE AN UNDERWATER UNICORN,
THEY GOT A KICK-ASS FACIAL HORN.
THEY ARE THE JEDI OF THE SEA,
THEY'LL STOP CTHULU  EATING YE

NARWHALS,
THEY ARE NARWHALS,
NARWHALS,
JUST DONT LET THEM TOUCH YOUR BALLS,
NARWHALS,
THEY ARE NARWHALS,
NARWHALS,
INVENTORS OF THE SHISH KEBAB =]
(repeat 1000000000000087339900000 times)

bet jamies siniging it noaaaaa ;D <3

Wednesday 30th March 2011

so yeah, your dads being a cunt :'( made us both upset =/ and hurt...buh ima shhh about that, we get to spend a week in teh easter hols together ^_^

i love you so much, the past 5 months have been amazing with you, 6 wekks may hurt buh it will be even more amazing after, promise <3 i will make sure off it.

did you know your perfect?? i tell you alot cuz its true :) honest.
your everything and more ^_^ to me anyways <3
never ever change????
if you changed you might not like me anymore.... :( and i would be sad. cuz i need you and i love you lots.... and lots... and lots.... and lots.... and lots ^////^
tehe. i really cant wait for summer, it will be amazing to spend it with you and stuff =] :')
i think ive gotten over not being able to see you a bit... cuz i know i can still talk to you every so often and see you in the easter :)
your gonna do well in your exams i know you are, your real smart. thats why i need you :') to help me learn tbh.
i cant wait till we finish college and shizz, cuz we get to live together and be all liake cuddlezz and kissezzzzz and eeeeeeep ^_^
i really really hope this makes you happeh =] cuz you make me happeh... ima just have to wait a few weeks, to look into your eyes, .... too get to kiss you ^////^
i love you jimjam!!!!! aluvzchusooooomuchh <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
-scawiii voice- ima beeee you wife!!!!!!!!!!!!! mwhahahahahahahaha

Monday 28th March 2011

eeee i got bored in maths so i came up with this >>>>

I Just love
my Amazing jamie.
He is Mine and
always wIll be
forever and Ever <3

its really stupid.... and as laura pointed out sad <.< (shifty eyes towards her)
buh it worked ^_^

i really really do love you jamie <3 so fucking much its unreal <3
i said most off what i wanted in the message this morning buh yeah :) i hope you got it ^_^
......i forgot to put my bra on this morning....... =/ :')
oops

ahhh making people paranoid =]

buh yeah i really miss you and this weekend should be good i cant wait to see you baby <3 ove you <3

Monday 21st March

wellll for starters.... 2DAYS TILL WEDNESDAY= 5MONTHS!!! with the most amazing guy i know ans love <3
and its been like 1month 1week and 1day since he proposed ^_^ <3
hold shit deyy ages!!!!!! tehe buh i reallii reallii reallii doooo lurve hiim sooooo muchhh <3

teh weekendwas funnnnn!!!!!

Fridaiii- diploma (-_-') buh evie at lunch ;) evie slept at mine, we took some happeh pills && went on the westwood xD ohhh lordyy was piss, well the slender man was stalking us :/ and their were werewolves. ran about screaming 'WHATS THAT COMING OVER THE HILL, IS IT A MONSTER, NOOOOO ITS AMYYYY!!!!' and we stole a golf flag and decided if anyone asked where we found it, 'It came out of amy's vagina!' :') such funn lulable times!!!!!

Saturday- me and evie went to town and waited at pit for jamie and people. I was collecting monies for teh alcohol fund and managed to get over £20 =] haha drunk, drunk, drunk ;)
with jamie i thought he was being really distant and iffy with me so i got scared he was gonna break up with me= me drinking alot, quite fast :) I did some bad things like, pull danielle, evie, danny fry, some other people. while pulling danielle danny and aaron fell on us and i got kicked in the face :( too drunk to feel it doe :D
I started crying cuz i thought jamie would hate me :/ so me and floppy pretended to be sheep (i was a dead one) and jamie scared teh shit outta me and i screamed xD didnt do much afetr that apart from sort things out with danny and his girlfriend, walked around with floppy, smoking, sobering up, going home and watching alice in wounderland... O and getting jamie to quit lent ;P

Sundaii- realising i broke my nose a 3am >< playing with it till jamie stopped me :') jamie had to goo :( buh untill he did it was sooo much funn, watching him on the wii and just cuddling and kissing him ^_^ i love it tehe. ive never been this soppy with anyone buh o well <3<3<3<3

I LOVE YOU FOREVER && EVER< PINKY PROMISE <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3

welll yeahh....

So hey there Jamie.
I wish i could say this in person but i don't see you till Saturday and tbh i think id be to shy to say this unless I'm drinking..

I really really love you baby && i never ever wanna lose you. Ima prove this one day i promise.
Ima pay you back for all the times you pay me into Hull and for all the things you buy me.
Ima make it up to you for getting upset thinking your gonna leave me :/
Ima try and be more positive about us and not think you deserve better.
I'm sorry I'm like this I'm just scared :( its weird for me being in a relationship this long with someone who treats me well and doesn't abuse me or lie to me. I'm just scared your gonna find someone better (which you really can do) or leave me and break my heart....
I really don't wanna lose you. I need you so much. <3
I need you to keep me sane. I need you to keep me from hurting myself :/
I need you allot more than i want you but i want you a hell of allot.

I know you wont agree but your perfect.
I love your hair and how its soft all the time.
I love your eyes and how pretty and blue they are. I like to look into them ^////^ its like looking into your soul and its so beautiful and pure.
I love your smile and how even when i don't want to, it makes me smile. I like how its kinda crooked and really cute.
I love your body and how nice it is to fall asleep with. It makes me feel all safe and lets me know that your actually real and I'm not imaging you.
I love your arms and when you hold me, just for the hugs, when I'm upset or when I'm really happy. They make me feel so safe and wanted i sometimes never want you to let go.
I love your personality. Its so kind, sweet, charming, amazing, cute, lovely and friendly. Your always nice to me no matter how much I'm upset, your always sweet to me even if i tell you to fuck off :/
I love you, entirely, so much. All of you. I'm so happy your mine, and I'm sorry for trying to push you away :( please don't leave me??

Last night i was reading chapter 3 of New Moon, when Edward leaves Bella.
I fell asleep and had a dream that woke me up crying...
it was our 2 years anniversary, but you didn't know, you asked me to walk to queens with you for a talk.
We went to Queens and sat on a bench, you started 'Aby, I'm moving away.'
I thought you meant i was going too because we talk about moving away together so i asked where were going.
You replied 'Not 'us' just me. Okay, your staying here.'
I was shocked and confused 'Why??? Where you going??'
You 'Im just leaving. I cant stay here, I'm moving far away so you never have to see ma again.'
I was close to tears but i held them back and said ;Why... What did i do wrong?? I'm sorry if i annoyed you or...'
You stopped me and said 'No its not your fault, I just don't want you anymore. I think that because I'm breaking up with you, I need to move away so you can forget me and move on'
I was so upset i wanted to just hold on to you and cry but i still didn't 'I don't want to lose you, I don't want to get over you but if that's what you want, okay....'
You walked away and I just layed there on the bench, crying my eyes out. I don't know how long i was there but Ryan Hoskin found me and asked if i was okay. All i could say was 'He's left me, Hes gone' and i couldn't move. He seemed to understand and he picked me up and took me to pit to find Terry to take me back to their place. Someone gave me a cig and when i was about to put it out and noone was looking i put it out on my wrist hoping that i wouldnt be able to feel it bacause I'd be dead. Unfortuantly i could feel it and Ryan took it off me.
When me, Ryan and Terry got to theirs i went to the toilet and found a razor for my wrists, Ryan and Terry thought i was taking to long so they came in and found me bleeding. I ended up drinking all the time, not leaving the house and either Terry or Ryan watched me for months.
I woke up crying :'(
I guess this is how much i need you...

Im sorry if this makes you cry or anything i really dont want you too.
I doo want to spend the rest of my life with you.
I love you <3

Tuesday 15th March

im maths with charlii xD
is quite fun :')

one thing i really wanna wright about doe is I LOVE YOU JAMIE STEPHEN ALLENBY <3
&& i know we have our moments.... and by that i mean me overreacting and nearly fucking everything up =/ buh i really cant afford to lose you ever :( i think my head would be fucked if i did and i dunno what i would do so please just ignor me when im like that kayy
i really need you and i love you with all my heart. i hope you read this and sit puts a smile on your face. i know my house is boring as fuck and you would rather be drinking with your friends buh yeah  :/
i really love you <3
lots and lots <3
i love my fiance <3

Thursday 10th March 2011

Well yeah today is sooo fucking SHIT!! its taking the fucking piss :(

First skype dosnt work so i cant talk to my amazing boyfriend </3
Then we get some exam results, Chemistry- C thats not to bad. buh Creative and media Diploma Unit 5- U!!!!! fuck that i worked real hard and got 1 FUCKING MARK! if my partner has a higher mark than me i will kick off ><
O and my boyfriends parents said if he gets a under a B in his maths exam than hes not allowed out on weekends..... he got a U :( so theres a big possibility i wont see him tomorrow. im gunna be so fucking sad if i dont get to cuddle him while i fall asleep after a week off hardly any :(
i just wanna see him, he makes me so happy and everything feels so much better when he's around to cuddle and kiss me. <3